Why do we let people in.. Let ourselves care. They're only going to leave, taking a piece of us with them. Tearing shreds of our heart out as they go.
I feel sick, right to my stomach. Seeing them together hurts like a bitch. Stinging round the edges and aching in all the wrong places. I've never felt like this before. Close but never this awful. Everything is wrong, my head feels heavy, running blanks where words should be and my chest is tight. Breathing ragged and my heart spluttering in a feeble attempt at beating.
Why did it have to be him, him of all people. It could have been anyone. And why her? I guess I'm glad it's her. If it had been anyone else I wouldn't have been able to take it. But I have to listen to her talk about them. How he says he loves her. How he's the one good thing in her life. And she knows. She knows that I like him. But not how I feel now. She thinks it will just go away, that I'll stop caring and everything will be normal. But I can't. She's my best friend. And I can't even do that for her.
Why the hell is everything so fucked up?Why am I so fucked up? I'm going to screw everything up. Wreck it all in a moment if they realise just how much this hurts. I'm so messed up. Just that bitch that's in love with her best friend's boyfriend.
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