so a few days ago i binged and purged for the first time in weeks and hated it, i felt awful and thought it would be the last time ever. but awfully i did it again tonight, forgive me Ana and please guide me back to your path. I feel terrible, like the fat bloated whale that i am, disgusting with my oozing flesh and guzzling mouth. I need more cigarettes, when i have one i dont want to eat and i feel in control. I need that control in my fucked up life. My skin is a mess, my mind even worse and my heart can barely stand the pain anymore. if anyone feels the same just say and i'll be there for you, Ana knows i wish someone was there for me.
Also sorry for the whining.
-J xx
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